I have to make a confession in order to move on with my life and it being furry related I thought I share. MFF 2013 was my very first fur con ever, it was also both the best experience as well as the worse.

I have nothing against MFF I have been going there solid for 2013 to 2019 and got the badges to prove it. Even though I can't find my 2015 badge.

Let me set the scene for you about 6 months before MFF my brother died of cancer. He lived with me since my mother died and helped share expenses. He did have some mental issues near the end of his life. I think now it was his way of dealing with terminal cancer. During this time there was many changes in my life. Like trying to figure out how I was going to pay my rent, have enough to live on or let alone how I was going to pay for the care of my dog. Also keep in my mind we just moved a month before he died.

So a furry friend suggested that I go to MFF 2013. Hoping that this would make me feel better. But admittedly I was a mess mentally. And when I stepped through the doors at the Hyatt Regency I was scared, overwhelmed, nervous, plus had a good case of anxiety. I took few photos, loved the fursuit parade, hit the Dealer's Area and Artist Alley, had lunch saw Floor Wars and I left 3 1/2 hours later. I just needed to go home.

I did get talk with a fursuiter who was checking badges for Floor Wars. He told me his 1st con all he did was get his badge, walk around and left 38 minutes later. He then told me that next year most of my problems would be solved and he was proof of that for 6 years later a volunteer at MFF checking badges.

If I remembered his name, I would give them the biggest hug I could muster. For they were 100% right, by MFF 2014 I was there most of the day.