I'm just gonna say what I've been up to for a while. Basically I left for a while because I was grounded/busy for a while with all the stuff that was happening with my family. I was still dating that guy from before but recently I hadn't felt the same toward him as I use to so I decided to break up with him luckily he understood and didn't seem too sad about him though I'm thinking about seeing how he is now. Other than that I had met a guy on a furry discord server which I had talked to a while before I actually got to know him but after learning more about him I started to have greater feelings toward him just to note I'm very impulsive I tend to let my emotions go and that tends to screw things up but he really understood me I thought. I had a mental breakdown while talking to him and he.. handled it better than anyone has before and that was when I realized how much I really liked him, he then asked if I wanted to call and I had said yes which we talked for 16 minutes. Then came the 8th.. it was later that night I was talking to him complementing him on all the stuff he can do and how impressive he is I guess that finally made him pour out his problems on me I was quite shocked and didn't know what to say it was just so much to take in at that time. He said he should have never told me and I really tried to calm the situation but in the end the last thing I heard from him was "This is my breaking point." I had cried myself to sleep that night thinking of what might he had done if he really was gone or not.. If he isn't gone I'm waiting for him to come back and when he does I want to tell him how I truly feel because after comparing him to myself we are not so different. I just want him to come back safe I want to tell him that I don't care what kind of problems he has even if it affects me too.