Hey everyone. I just kind of need to vent for a second. See, I'm not doing really well. In fact, I'm awful. See, I've been in foster care for 11 years now, and the place I'm at sucks. They are anti-gay, and hate me too. They do things like call me a moron and say I'm dumb... Recently my mind has started to think of more... evil things I wish I could do to these people. I don't know why my mind is having these dark thoughts but I wish they would stop... I wish everything would just stop... I think it could also because I have such bad bipolar that this happens. Sometimes my bipolar gets so bad it's almost like split personality disorder. I feel like I have a shadowy, evil side of me. One I don't like. Idk it just feels like I am two minds in the same body some time. Recently I've been vaping and getting high. It helps me escape the pain and agony I'm experiencing. But the evil me is always there... lingering... Idk this probably sounds really dumb please don't judge me.