3:17
Im crying into my pillow right now because I have no true family
my father and mother are divorced
I have no true sibling
and I roleplay a life I dream that's makes me happy
I want a father that will not yell
a mother that will listed to me
and a sister that will enjoy my hugs
I hallucinate the family I want and give them there proper personality to make it perfect for me
I feel the touch of a paw, the brush of a tail, and a soft fluffy warm hug every night and smile with tears because it's what I want that I can't have
I live such a broken life, and yet I put a smile on for you all because I don't want you to worry about me, and I care for everyone but myself
I love you all so much, and it makes me SO happy to know I can brighten someone's day by just talking to them
I hate this big loving heart of mine
but I keep it because it makes you all happy
3:33
this took me so long to type because I kept crying